I am painting, like I never did before
New colours, shapes and feelings...
And the one I'd like to show it to –
don't dare to meet him ever more.
But knowing this, won't stop the flow of thoughts
he gave my inspiration back to me,
I won't let people make forget
the lesson that he taught!
When I'm feeling suppressed by what is required –
I get even more inspired!
When I'm out of reach and misunderstood –
my soul starts flying higher and higher!
I'm getting naughty and this is so good!
Though I'm forced to cut myself from my great understander
No one can force me
to become understandable for somebody else.
I am wildly painting, naughtily!
And every spot makes me feel near to the one I love
While every brush-line is an evidence
that feeling cannot be imprisoned by force.
Come, have a look and try to see!
But you'll never see
what he would have understood...
A great source of knowledge
about myself got removed from me –
what shall I do?